.meet my hubby.
i like to imagine that i can still dances my life like yesterday.. okay, im probably talking in a language that not many can understand.. but that's just me.
my thoughts have been hijacked to orbit the planet of fuzziness these few days. this repetitive questioning and answering around the same orbit could have been the reason why a lot of things are misplaced lately and my head buzzing in a rather annoying deafening decibels.
it’s like having a mosquito high on ketamine lost in my mosquito net. i feel like burning the whole net and let the mosquito feast on me.
self-note: belief in God, have faith..
the word forgiveness seems really big. to forgive and forget, to forget but never forgive, or to forgive but never forget. we must have pondered upon these words at least once in our lives. and to some people, more than once.
people make mistakes, we makes mistakes. sometimes we hurt people, sometimes we get hurt. how often does this process get in the way of us moving forward in our lives..?
unless we've had permanent brain damage, or perhaps a serious case of amnesia, it is usually hard to forget..
but in our most strong yet fragile heart of ours, we can find it in our soul to forgive, the ones who might have hurt us in any way, for it allows the anger to rest in peace so we can move on to a brighter day..
sometimes in our hearts, when we lay ourselves to sleep at night we say to ourselves..
"will he/she/they forgive me for that i have done..?"
but did we ever question this..
"i cannot forgive myself for what i have done" ..?
it is when we have a question like this, that we sometimes lie sleepless at night, or that we try so hard in life, to make things right, we push ourselves to the limit, either blaming ourselves or proving it the world that we are okay yet we are never really okay.
it may not be the easiest thing to do, but i've learned, forgiving in its own, is the most humane thing a soul can do, to one's own self, and to another.
i learn how people sacrifice their lives for the ones they love. i learn how it feels to not have a choice. i see how horrible things are on the other side of the world, where buildings turn to dust and people die on streets. i realize how important it is to forgive. something i learned how to a long time ago, but have forgetten how important it can be.
i feel so uninspired, but i want to be. i am looking for great inspirations. maybe i need to look deeper within myself.
nobody said it was easy..
im tired. bone tired. soul tired. tired in that way you're when you think you've reached your destination at last but discover there's yet another hill to climb.
i was tagged by tinie. so here goes.
my foundation
.i rarely use foundation but i swear by MAC strobe cream.
.for special occassion, kalau rajin pakai jugaklah liquid foundation and concealer by MAC.
my powder
.laura mercier loose powder.
.body shop loose powder.
.MAC lightful ultracharge foundation compact.
.estee lauder compact powder.
my blusher
.loreal feel naturale.
.body shop blusher.
.estee lauder tender blush.
my eye shadow
.body shop.
.estee lauder.
my eyeliner / brow liner
.shu eumura drawing pencil in brown.
.body shop brow definer in brunette.
my lipstick
.bobbi brown in ruby.
.estee lauder in cocoa rose.
my lipgloss
.MAC.
.estee lauder.
my mascara
.MAC fibre-lash mascara.
.estee lauder.
my day cream
.clinique moisture surge moisturiser and clinique derma white moisture cream.
.body lotion is a must, will opt between thann sea foam body milk, palmers body lotion, crabtree & evelyn la source body lotion, victoria's secret body lotion; love spells or pure seduction. ikut mood nak bau apa.
my essential beauty product
.clinique rinse off foaming cleanser.
.clinique liquid facial soap.
.st'ives apricot scrub.
.clinique total turn around concentrate.
.clinique derma white moisture cream.
.clinique moisture surge cream.
.yerps. i skip toner! hate it.
my favourite make-up product
.MAC strobe cream.
.laura mercier loose powder.
my shower products
.body shop shower gel in olive.
.body shop shower gel in satsuma.
.body shop shower gel in lavender.
.seba med shower oil.
.lulur by citra.
my hair products
.dove shampoo.
.loreal anti frizz serum.
my dental products
.jordan toothbrush.
.colgate herbal toothpaste.
.pearl drops tooth polish.
my perfume
.ikut mood juga, nak bau macam mana.
(pics: hubby's and mine)
.still by jLo.
.paul smiths.
.vera wang.
.pleasure intense by estee lauder.
.pleasure by estee lauder.
.provocative by elizabeth arden.
.lovely by sjp.
.live by jLo.
.paris hilton.
.joop femme.
.beyond paradise by estee lauder.
.and the list goes, i just love parfumes!
my nails
.manicare nail clipper.
.sally hansen cuticle cream.
my feet
.pumice stone.
.foot file emery board.
my hands
.palmers concentrated cream.
.l'occitane hand cream.
three products to bring on a deserted island
.body lotions.
.sea cucumber loofah.
.shampoo.
women i admire for their beauty
.my mum for her body.
.my MIL for her skin.
.mother theresa for her heart.
.women who represent life, fertility, and prosperity respectively.
women with the best sense of style
.queen rania.
.princess diana.
my ultimate dream
.to be in shape even with kids.
how do i define womanhood
.the consistent discovery of piety, purity, domesticity, and submissiveness.
my favourite fashion publication
.glam.
.bazaar.
i am tagging
.miss switakon.
.cik ain izwain.
.zety becky.
.shima.
has it been almost three month? it doesn’t feel like it. really. terasa seperti baru beberapa hari yang lalu diijabkabulkan.
i've been waiting for inspiration to update this blog but its not easy eh if you think about it. to write stuff about your relationship and how things develop and whats not. but i guess its always good to remember how things were, how everything started, how the love grew and whats not. because sometimes when you've been with someone for so long you may start to get less patient and less tolerant towards the things that you found sooo attractive in the first place.
i've lost ways and words to describe how happy he make me.
kepala bagai ditunjal-tunjal ke pejabat..
ooh malasnya!
"And be steadfast in patience, for verily Allah will not suffer the reward of the righteous to perish." (11:115)
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